no one knows

volt már olyan, hogy mindegy mennyire igyekeztél, soha nem jött össze semmi ?

lassan kezd minden visszaállni a régi kerékvágásba
és az a rohadt gombóc kezd visszacsúszni a torkomba.

you can't just walk back in. not now, not after i worked so hard to forget you. i know i eventually have to move on, but what i feel for you will never be replaced. you know, these are the days when i don't want to wake up anymore. not dead, just sleep forever. and i keep telling myself that if you really wanted to talk to me, you would.
i feel weak. i feel fragile. i feel unstable. i feel sensitive. i feel delicate. i feel like someone could literally break me at any moment, at any given second. i don't want to feel like this anymore. most of the times i don't even know why i feel like this. i wanna feel free. i want to feel strong. i want to escape from myself and these emotions. you know there's so much stuff piling up and i don't think i can handle it anymore..