there is always one sentence back in my mind - there are so many days when living stops and pulls up and sits and waits a train on the rails. i look up at the window and think, i no longer know where you are, and i walk on and wonder where the living goes when it stops.

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too tough for him,
I say, stay in there, I'm not going
to let anybody see
you.

please dont die

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I am not myself.

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been up all night again..

na jo ez mar insomnia.

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Boldogsag konnyek

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these days of nothingness...

Ain't no question if I want it, I need it.  I can feel it slowly drifting away from me.

Perfection in the Star Turd
where love died
laughing.

god damn! it's almost like being shot in the ass with a .22 

there's only one way to handle those motherfuckers. 

back to the machine gun.

shot in the eye
shot in the brain
shot in the ass
shot like a flower in the dance

as the poems go into the thousands you
realize that you've created very
little.

it is not going to be ok.

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too much crying in a day..

I am a fuckin wreck..

no more things to live for..

I am with u

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ki fog szakadni a lelkem a helyéről...

Life is funny, isnt it? just when u think u got it all figured out, just when u finally begin to plan something, get excited about it and feel like u know what direction ur heading in, the paths change, the wind blows the other way, north is suddenly south and east is west and ur lost. it is so easy to lose ur way, to lose direction.

there arent many sure things in life, but one thing I do know is that u have to deal with the consequences of ur actions. u have to follow through on some things.

I always give up. what have I ever had to do in my life that really needed

to be done? I always had a choice and I always took the easy way out. but what if there is no more easy way out for me?

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as soon as I was with u, the rest of the world just melted away.

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i have lost the control over my life. whenever i think about this case, no matter how great i feel, i just come crashing down. im normally a very stable person...

STABLE?

stable, or just not feeling one thing or the other? sometimes we get so used to not really feeling anything, just going with the flow, that we forget how it feels to be really happy or really sad. 

emotional ups and downs... like a fuckin roller coaster